So, I have been hitting all week with a double handed backhand, and I’ve been asking people for some feedback on it. Thanks to my friends, I have been getting some positive reinforcement, that it’s more consistent, more power, etc.

So, I am still going to keep on with the two-hander; and my arm, still doing pretty good. I wonder if it will ever get 100% better though. I still, probably, need to take more time off to let it heal. I was thinking after my next tournament, taking some time off. But, it’s so frustrating, I take time off, and it takes me so long to get my game back. I lost my serve, and I just got it going again.

But, so far the two-hander has helped, my arm is operable, unlike with the one hander that rendered it practically dead. But, the two hander is starting to show promise towards being better than my one hander.

So, after all this time, dealing with my arm and researching what could be wrong with it. I don’t think I can continue hitting a one-handed backhand anymore.

Turns out I have had this problem before, agitating a tendon in my right arm, hitting my backhand and serving the way I do. But I think it’s finally catching up with me, and healing is taking longer and longer. So, I may have some changes to make - first I will be moving to a two handed backhand, as not to agitate the tendon in my arm. Also I am thinking about adjusting my serve to use more of my arm/body weight to power through the motion.

I’ve hit a two-handed backhand before, so hopefully, the transition won’t be to hard.

Nothing is official, but I may tinker with the idea starting this week. And, I’ll keep everyone posted.

It’s like my work kills my arm. Now, I don’t know if it was because it was previously injured, or because work is what is irritating it. Mousing to be exact.

I’ve taken maybe 3-4 days off already, and my arm still hurts, and I wonder if what I do at work all day is affecting it.

I’m going to get a mouse-support or some kind. Grr @ this situation - big time Grr!

It’s unfortunate, for me at least, how tennis dictates, so much, who I am, even what type of person I am. How I feel about myself, when it comes down to it, tennis is me, without it it’s pretty hard to imagine really being happy with myself. I read a post once on a MySpace blog that said something like how a sport becomes who you are, and for me, it’s true, 90% of the time.

I was playing a friend this evening, and I just wanted it to be over. Feels like I’m out there, but tennis isn’t the challenge anymore. I just can’t figure out what’s wrong, I just feel bad, things aren’t working anymore, and I don’t think I changed anything! I know my arm being injured has something to do with it, if not 80% to do with it (*shrug).

I was playing this morning, and I remembered saying that it felt like my spirit’s dying.

So I’m thinking (right now) about maybe trying a month off. But, for me, it would be really tough. So, I don’t know…

When I was at Arizona with Adam Altschuler, I felt more like a professional than I ever have, it just all seemed to come together for me there. Even, despite the injuries I was dealing with, and even when I realized how much more I had to learn and gain, I still felt it. But, since leaving, I just haven’t felt it anymore, I serve the same, but the ball just doesn’t leave the racquet the same. Same goes for the rest of my game. I really hope it’s my arm, and I really hope there’s something (a month off) I can do about it.

Just not looking forward to it, it’s tough to not be out there, working - it’s what I do.

But I really felt like giving it all up today, but I know now, that’s practically impossible - tennis really does have so much to do with who I am; especially being an athlete. I’m not sure if I’m solving anything, but I need to do something.

I want to go out there at least feeling like I’m doing my best. I was about a 7/10 before, today, I felt like a .2/10.

A month……….

It can’t be something I’m doing wrong, at least, I still don’t think so. I tried modifying lots of things to try and figure out what is wrong with my arm. So, I think I am going to be taking some more time off to let it heal. I think I may know what I did to injure it, but I don’t think it is still re-injuring my arm, maybe irritating the area.

I’m not looking forward to it, I don’t even know how long I should take off. I figured I’d start off with a week, so next Thursday.

I was playing with Jason the other day, and I couldn’t even… it was just bad! And the thought of me not playing again by injuring myself permanantly caught my breath, so I think I need to take this a little more seriously. Before I was just thinking it was just a strain or ‘ouchie’, but I think it may be something more serious that needs more time.