@ Ubuntu Forums I wrote,

Okay, this is just like a bad marriage, I want it to work out, but she keeps treating me so badly!

Why is Ubuntu releasing unstable Kernel updates? I just updated to 2.6.24-19 (Generic), and mind you, I’m a super geek, but I enjoy not having to think or act like one when it comes to my OS!

I love linux the applications are above par and far beyond that of applications in Windows and at least to par, if not better, than Mac OSx applications.

I had to disable Desktop Effects to get my computer to (quote) turn the ‘ef on! (end quote)

I got a white screen of death… (Read more…)

Vlog from Silent Update @ Youtube

Sometime in 2007 I created Your Body is ah Wonderland @ Livevideo

I miss having this much fun, and I miss being this bored sometimes. I really want to start doing video blogs, and videos again. I hope I never get too old to have fun, I think I grew up a little in 2008 — dang it!

Time to grow-down!

On Monday, June 20th I wrote:

I’ve spent two hours trying to write this particular post, and I’m exhausted. I just re-proved the point the post was trying to make: sometimes, I hate the way I think sometimes.

It all started because, on my trip back from Albuquerque this morning, I was thinking about how much people praying bothers me - then I saw these awesome (almost lifelike) clouds in the sky, and I started going into one of my thought processes. I was, as always, so exhausted by my thoughts, that I had lost why I was looking at them to begin with.

But, for a few minutes, I remember being able to just let go and not worry about it, just watching them as if someone had fit them there, just for us to be amazed at. I thought those clouds were so awesome for about twenty minutes, I was both amazed and stole by the moment…

I was listening to Baptism by Kenny Chesney and Randy Travis one day, and I remember how emotionally wrenching it was for me when I heard, “down with old man, up with the new.” I remembered how nice it would feel to come up and not have to think about all the answers. To come up, all in faith and acceptance.

My life would be so much easier if I could just do that, in so many different applications…

But, I’m not that person. Even thought I wish, sometimes, I was, I’m not. There are those people, some have faith life is a domino of action and reaction, full of reason and explanation because they test it. And, there are some that have faith in something unknown, creative, misunderstood and loving because they feel it.

And then, there’s me. Someone with an on-going struggle between the beautiful surfaces and beautiful depth.

I’m not sure I got my point across…

I’m totally dissatisfied by this post now that I’m done. I wish I had posted the original, it happened again, but it always happens. - I’m not so sure I’m currently dissatisfied, actually. I had the same thing happen this weekend, I think I am definitely going through something big right now… (See Edit, July 16th 2008)

- Toché

Edit: July 16th 2008

Actually, I think I made this post a little unclear, so I’d like to clarify. By “going through something big” I meant that I am learning a lot about myself, but really, none of my beliefs are changing, just they are changing the way I live. I am the type of person that tries to be aware of everything around me (right or wrong) and in the moment on that day, I had a personal experience with the ease of having faith, which I envy about most religions.

But, during that personal experience (and others similar to it, like I mentioned the song), I think I got a little worked up because I know, how I believe, will always make it harder for me. Not that I don’t appreciate the truth and clarity my thoughts bring me, they are still very complicated to have.

This previous weekend I noticed I am starting to really deal with the re-percussions of how I believe - more accurately the “way I am”. Being a very complex, strange, sometimes simply weird person has it’s good and bads - that’s what this post was mostly about. And, “the big thing I am going through right now” is simply my personal issues with the bads that come along with the way I think…

Hopefully, that cleared some things up…

The bigger a company gets, the less in touch they seem with their customers.

So, I finally got a bag of Fritos and Diet Pepsi for lunch today. Another reason I was probably pissed yesterday, was probably my lack of calories to top it all off.

I just got back from Wells Fargo this morning. This isn’t a identification issue, really. I think, now, that I am a little calmer I think I can listen to reason on the identification issue. But, I still had to insist that someone give me access to my account, and apparently, according to Richard Alexander of the El Paseo branch in Las Cruces, every bank is going to insist I supply state-issued identification (MVD) to access my money, money I am using to invest in their bank, money that supports their ability to sell loans…

I had every form of identification available, two student (picture) I.D.’s (state issued, if I am correct), birth certificate (will get me into the United States), bills, and I could recite any of my personal information from memory. And still, I was getting a refusal from customer service at the El Paseo branch in Las Cruces, this morning.

Until, a lady, who I only know as Lily, came up, had me re-identify myself with a throughout slew of questions, some I was even unsure of, because I could hardly remember, but I did. She checked my I.D.’s and said she trusted I was me. Finally! I’m me again! I think I proved it.

So I got my $20, which I will be using to pay my friend back, and some sanity, until I was sent back to another banker to get an Instant ATM card. Apparently this is Wells Fargo’s solution to loosing your ATM card, and needing ATM access – a temporary card, which, to my previous knowledge, was not an option; wasn’t even mentioned to me beforehand.

So, I went back, and again, Lily was nice, smiled, tried to make me feel better – treated me like a human. I think I really know why this eek’d me, because we’re being led on by the term customer service and we’re loosing human service. I saw this when I left Verizon, I couldn’t get a human on a telephone, lots of policy, no after no after no. I think Wells Fargo is getting too big, and they’re loosing touch with their “customers.”

So I wanted to re-verify that there was NO way I could get access to my account without a state-issued I.D., and I was re-confirmed of it by Richard Alexander – even though I had just “found a way.” I asked lots of questions and gave him my concerns and he even recommended I close my account, that there’s “nothing we can do to stop you.” That’s for damn sure!

He was not helpful, showed no concern for the frustration I was going through, and gave me a fake “have a nice day” on my way out.

I am still going to close my account, and I am going to look for a more personal bank, that isn’t wrapped up in policy, micro-responsibility, and each banker thinks about what it’s like to be in the other guy’s shoes. I predict this happening all over the United States, people are going to start going back to the home-based businesses, back to humanity. Because customer consideration will sure beat the hell out of what we call “customer service” today.

No matter how much service I would have got today at Wells Fargo El Paseo Branch, nothing could have helped the terrible feeling I had entering the building, and asking these people for help.

Thanks to Lily though – she really tried.